Sigh...

My life was so simple back in eigth grade. I thought it was hard but it really wasn't compared to what my like is now.

Back in eighth grade it was all about having a boyfriend and holding hands.
Well, high school happened and now it's all about sex, getting drunk and drugs.

Hmm maybe I should explain. But I really can't.
You would'nt understand unless you were in my shoes. I could sit here and write an entire book on how everything's changed and nothing's alright. But, sadly you still wouldn't understand.
To quote a good song, "You might think I'm happy, but I'm not gunna be okay..."

I worry every night about what's happened to my life. My friend's have changed so much in only one year. Kayleigh and Megan just to name a couple. They just don't care anymore. No one cares. Sam cares. I care. But that doesn't count. They don't listen to us. Sam crys about it. They still don't care. No one ever will.

We even have talks to get everything off our mind. It doesn't work. It just makes it worse.

I say to myself I'll never be like them, I'll never do the things that they do. But how do I know that it's not all just a lie. Maybe my whole life is a lie. Who knows. No one does. Not even me.

I want eighth gade back. I want the innocence we had back.
But, there's no way to get it all back.

Megan says to Sam, I'll never do drugs, I'll never drink. I promise. Don't worry about it.
Megan changes.
Sam says to Megan, What happened to the promise?
Megan says, People change, get over it.

How can you really get over it?
There's no way.

Well people do change. For the worst.



In the end, no one cares.

toocoolfor you.
9:30 PM
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